Sunday, May 16

weekend continued...

I am pitiful, this being said...
I love this church I am going to, the ministers are personable, witty and creative, among them the name Brad Johanson of tv news fame. The past few weeks I seem to be leaving feeling more lonely than when I arrive. This does puzzle me to no end as I started going back to church years ago when I divorced Christy, mother of my only kid. It (church) has not been a real commitment as I did stop going for sometime. I have recently started going again, this time taking a friends advise and going to Crossroads church in Oakley. The empty, lonely feeling I speak of is not so unknown to me, when I divorced Christy the feeling overpowered me even almost got me fired, I found that out after the fact. Church seemed to calm the feeling. Left me with peace and a satisfaction that I was in fact doing exactly what I needed to be doing. So this lonelier feeling at the end of the service is mind boggling. I ended up talking with a few people after the service and found God is actually there. I am not an overly religious man, but my conscience speaking to me and these people I spoke with today are proof positive there is something beyond the short life we live hear on planet Earth. It really wasn't anything that was said, more the fact that these people actually stopped, lent me their time, listened to me; and gave me advise that I had heard before.  Of the 3 it was the married woman, named Laura that did most the talking. Her husband John was standing right there as she sat down next to me and put her arm around me. It was a friendly hug, just when I needed a friend and a hug. It was notably a moving experience. 

1 comment:

Neo said...

well thank you.. I do appreciate that